Rest. My brain has such a hard time with that word that I couldn't quiet
it long enough to figure out what to write this Friday. There is so
much going through my brain at one time that rest is hard to come by. I
can be exhausted on the couch and the minute my head hits the pillow my
brain turns on. I should have called the insurance company about the
roof. When will things change at work? Should I spend the money to take
that trip this summer or should I use that money on my house? Before
I know it I'm wide awake and it's hours before I get any rest.
For Lent, I gave up talking to myself, hoping that I would hear God in the silence. I was hoping that by turning to Him for answers instead of trying to figure things out on my own by sorting through my thoughts out loud that I would find some rest. In turning it over to the only one that knows the answers, my head would rest on the pillow at night and my brain would turn off knowing it was all in His hands.
Rest. It's still hard to come by but it is getting easier. I see the good around me that God is doing - a 22-year girl coming back from a stroke, her mother finding a new employer who is understanding of her situation and allowing her to keep her job while her daughter recuperates. It is in moments like this, when I see that God can do so much beyond what we can imagine He can do that I learn to rest in the arms of the only one that can quiet my brain.
UPDATE: Thanks to everyone for your well wishes. The 22-year-old is the niece of a friend. God continues to bless her family with an amazing recovery!
For Lent, I gave up talking to myself, hoping that I would hear God in the silence. I was hoping that by turning to Him for answers instead of trying to figure things out on my own by sorting through my thoughts out loud that I would find some rest. In turning it over to the only one that knows the answers, my head would rest on the pillow at night and my brain would turn off knowing it was all in His hands.
Rest. It's still hard to come by but it is getting easier. I see the good around me that God is doing - a 22-year girl coming back from a stroke, her mother finding a new employer who is understanding of her situation and allowing her to keep her job while her daughter recuperates. It is in moments like this, when I see that God can do so much beyond what we can imagine He can do that I learn to rest in the arms of the only one that can quiet my brain.
UPDATE: Thanks to everyone for your well wishes. The 22-year-old is the niece of a friend. God continues to bless her family with an amazing recovery!
Precious post, bless you, and your daughter.
ReplyDeleteThere were times I couldn't get to sleep because of all the mental racket. I found that now that I don't watch any TV - not even the news, and I read a few pages of a good fiction book - I sleep soundly.
ReplyDeleteI also found that making sure I had some quiet time with God in the day - just sitting in His presence put me into a better frame of mind.
Blessings that REST is getting easier for you.
Janis www.janiscox.com
I can identify so profoundly with your post. I, too, cannot seem to shut my brain off until I am so beyond tired that I seem to just fail to function. I have so many balls in the air that I am desperate not to drop. I'm only just now realizing that, if they fall, I can just pick them back up with God's help. Thank-you for your wonderful post and blessings on your family.
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