This post on love probably won't take me 5 minutes to write. It's pretty simple - I don't believe in it.
I do believe in God's love for me and the love that it took for Jesus to die on the cross for me.
I believe in my parents' love. They've been married almost 57 years and still hold hands.
I believe in their love for me - I've never doubted that for one second. And I've messed up in some pretty big ways.
And I believe in the sisterly love between me and my younger sibling.
But that's it. I don't believe in romantic love, the kind you see in movies or the kind that people gush about on Facebook. I believe gone are the days where people overlook someone's quirks and push through to a 57th wedding anniversary. It is a sad existence to feel that way but after being on my own for 8+ years, I've given up on love. I've tried to fill my days with church activities and lunch out with friends but when it comes down to it, I still go home to an empty house. I am hoping that after some more time passes, I will let my guard down and believe once again. But for now, my heart is safer not believing in love.
I do believe in God's love for me and the love that it took for Jesus to die on the cross for me.
I believe in their love for me - I've never doubted that for one second. And I've messed up in some pretty big ways.
And I believe in the sisterly love between me and my younger sibling.
But that's it. I don't believe in romantic love, the kind you see in movies or the kind that people gush about on Facebook. I believe gone are the days where people overlook someone's quirks and push through to a 57th wedding anniversary. It is a sad existence to feel that way but after being on my own for 8+ years, I've given up on love. I've tried to fill my days with church activities and lunch out with friends but when it comes down to it, I still go home to an empty house. I am hoping that after some more time passes, I will let my guard down and believe once again. But for now, my heart is safer not believing in love.
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