Five Minute Friday is a writing event that has writers spending five minutes writing on the same topic and then sharing them at http://katemotaung.com/five-minute-friday/. This week's word is Present.
This photo of me was taken on a gondola in Venice. My sister and I didn't even know that the tour group had arranged for gondola rides and we almost didn't go. We thought about the money, the fact that as you can see by all of the straps hanging off of me, we had almost everything valuable with us and what would happens were filling our brains but we decided to go for it. And I am so glad that we did, that we lived in the present and had this once in a lifetime moment.
Coincidently, just weeks from getting back from that trip, the Five Minute Friday word was also present. I'd like to say that I've resolved everything I wrote about in that post, but unfortunately, I still struggle with the present. I can go through my day just fine, living in the moment and enjoying the present. But the minute my head hits the pillow, the tapes reliving the past start playing. The what ifs and the what's wrong with me drown out the memories of a perfectly good day and how this life, this present, is just fine even if it isn't how I thought it would be.
What I'm trying to do more often, and I think I may be succeeding at this, is to remember when those tapes hit play, that God is present. He has me in the palm of his hand and can turn the past into a wonderful present. I just have to be present in this moment and feel his presence in my life.