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Five Minute Friday: Here

Here - not in the past, not in the future - here.

Here - not with people who have left, not with people I want in your life - here with the people that are present in my life now.

I've thought a lot about these ideas recently. I dwell so much on the past and how I thought things would have been or dwell on how I'd like things to be in the future that I don't enjoy here, where I'm at now. Sometimes I'm afraid that I'm going to look around one day and realize that there was this great life going on around me and I was so busy looking back or forward that I didn't look side to side to what I had right then.

I'm also bad about this when it comes to people. I miss people for a really long time, holding on to what could/should have been. I also long for people that I think I want in my life, people I think will make me matter. When I stop that kind of thinking, I realize that I currently have some pretty great people in my life, people that are probably much better for me and more of what I need than what I think I want.

Here is where I should be. Here in this moment, enjoying the things I'm experiencing right now.
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  1. Jacque WatkinsApril 12, 2013 at 7:27 PM

    Oh such a word! To savor the now and not long for what is to come...I'm joining you in that and in cherishing those in my life even now. Blessings to you!

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  2. UnknownApril 12, 2013 at 7:33 PM

    To not look around, but instead to enjoy the present. This has been on my mind a lot lately as well. Thanks for sharing.

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  3. L. HedgecockApril 12, 2013 at 8:28 PM

    It's so true!

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  4. AnonymousApril 12, 2013 at 11:05 PM

    oohhhh I tend to do that too with people....note to self.....don't!! Great post! Thank you!!

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  5. DeniseApril 13, 2013 at 10:36 PM

    Enjoy your here.

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