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Five Minute Friday: Wait

Five Minute Friday is a writing event that has hundreds of writers spending five minutes writing on the same topic and then sharing them at http://katemotaung.com/five-minute-friday/. This week's word is Wait.

Wait, oh how I hate that word. I have often said when they were handing out patience, I was holding the door for the others to file in and receive theirs. Just as recently as two weeks ago, I had someone say, "Just wait" in reference to understanding the reasons for the pain caused by my divorce. I responded with, "Damn it!" A more eloquent way of putting it would have been to say, "but I want my answers right now."

The photo above is of the clock tower in St. Mark's Square in Venice. Not only does it tell the time, it displays the position of the sun in the zodiac, and it also has an angel that emerges during Epiphany and Easter.

It reminds me of waiting. When I pray, I want results right away, in a period of time that can be conveyed by a clock. Oh, who am I kidding, by a stop watch. But sometimes prayers are answered in weeks, like the passing from one astrological period to another. Or, worse and more often, the waiting lasts for season, a span of time best measured by a calendar. Or two. Or three.

I feel bad when I get impatient with waiting. Shouldn't I have more faith than that? I often wonder if my impatience with waiting is what's keeping me from the joy that they tell me is waiting for me. If I just had more faith, I wouldn't have to wait any longer. All my dreams would be realized.

I want to get to the point where I don't use a clock, a zodiac, or a calendar to measure the time I'm waiting. I want to be alive in the moment, assured that God's plan for me is worth the wait. I hope that one day "just wait" turns into the realization that this journey through the pain has led to something better than I ever imagine - the life that was waiting for me.

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  1. {{{Andrea}}} Waiting is hard, especially when waiting on answers to prayers. As I get older, I've come to believe that there's a lot of answers I may never know on this side of eternity and it's been a journey of learning to be okay with that. Instead, it's been using the time of TODAY - which is all we really know we have - to do what's before me and find the glimpses of happiness that God has around me.

    Praying for you on your journey of waiting,
    Tammy ~@~
    #FMF

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  2. The season of waiting can be so incredibly difficult! But we miss some of the most wonderful miracles and lessons about ourselves and our faith if we were to skip over the wait. I am so sorry for your divorce and the pain you're experiencing, but please trust that God has you wrapped up in His more than capable arms and will carry you through this into something much better. You will be in my prayers.

    Courtney
    www.ournotsoengineeredlife.blogspot.com

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