Muddle as a verb means bring into a disordered or confusing state. As a noun it means an untidy and disorganize state or collection. As applied to my life, it is the perfect description of how I live.
This is part of my backyard. Volunteer trees and weeds have taken over and created an untidy area where there used to be beautiful plants and pea gravel paths. The inside of my house is a bit of a mess as well with half-finished home improvement projects and piles of this-n-that I'm not sure what to do with.
My mind is muddled as well. Too many thoughts clutter my thinking - the struggle between how I live and how I want to live. The struggle of how I am with how I think people view me. The thought of how I view myself and what the Bible says about me.
I want to clear away the clutter, to stop leaving in a state of muddle. I want to quit rid of the things in my house that I don't need. I want to pull the weeds and cut down the volunteer trees to get back to a tranquil space in my backyard. And most importantly, I want to get rid of the muddle in my brain to get to the person God has created me to be.