But then the weight came back, and I have felt myself withdraw again. I don't seek out seeing old acquaintances, I skipped attending a funeral because what can I say about myself. I'm single, I have no kids, I have no worth.
I know that's not true. I can't tell you exactly where my worth comes from but I know I have it. I know I have worth as a daughter and a sister. I know I have worth in how I serve my church (even if I did mess up a couple of times this morning while serving as liturgist). However, I don't see worth when I look in the mirror.
All of that being said, I have decided to take a HUGE step and quit hiding behind an image that is 53.5 years old. Here is what I look like today. This photo was taken on my recent vacation. The cheeks are chubbier than I would like, the gray hair is showing a little more than my stylist would like but this is me.
I know that my worth doesn't come from how many pounds I weigh, whether I am married, or whether I am a mother. I'm trying to get this down in my spirit, to find my worth in how I treat people and my heart for helping people.
This is the true me, extra pounds and all! This is the true me, I have worth beyond measure.