Today should have been my 19th wedding anniversary. Instead this is the
fourth-year I'm marking this date without my husband. The end of my
marriage was not of my choosing. I can't even explain really what
happened, that's how far out of my hands it all feels. I know what he
told me the day he said he was moving out, I have emails and notes on
conversations we had after he left but I still search for the reasons
why he decided he didn't want to be married anymore. I have my theories
and others have offered their theories but at the end
of the day, it simply comes down to this - I am on my own, trying to
make a
life out of the brokenness.
Lisa-Jo Baker (lisajobaker.com) hosts a weekly event on her blog called "Five Minute Friday". The rules are 1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking. 2. Link back here and invite others to join in. 3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community.. So here's my first try at this. Today's topic was Roots. Roots – I think about my grandparents who lived on a farm until my grandfather’s diabetes worsened and they moved to a town with a hospital nearby. My father still says he wished he could have kept that farm. I think of my grandmother who was a widow for 20 years. Every year she would stand over my PaPa’s grave, wishing she was with him. I think of my parents, a product of those grandparents, how hard my father worked to put 2 girls through...
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